Ever stood in front of the microwave and forgot why you were standing there??


For that matter have you ever opened the fridge door and forgot why you opened it? I have, matter of fact I have closed the fridge door or left from in front of the microwave depending on which one I was doing; and then gone back to my bedroom or wherever I was prior to the microwave or fridge and then I will remember why I was at the microwave or why I had opened the fridge. At times like these I feel like a real idiot! However, the worst is when I am in the middle of something and get distracted and then end up doing something else only to be distracted again by the cat or my mom and start something else. Then later I will notice 2-3 things half done and have to finish them (hopefully before I get distracted again).

Past Examples of things I have left undone would be:

  • turning the washer on and forgetting to put detergent or, softener in and/or leaving the lid up
  • leaving the fridge door open
  • leaving the dishes half done
  • leaving drawers or cabinets open

By now I am sure you are thinking I must be a little senile. My mom says I remind her of an absent-minded professor; because I don’t see the forest for the trees. Unfortunately, I see and hear way to much. My mind just processes things different. You see I believe I have Asperger’s Autism. If you know anything about autism you know that we are overwhelmed a lot by our environment. Me, well I get distracted by all the input. I can be talking about something very serious then see a butterfly or a flower and then I am looking at the butterfly or smelling the flowers and the person I was talking to is left hanging. You have to be quite patient when you are around me.

Since I turned forty, (seven years ago) I also noted a decline in my memory. So, I have to write everything down now. Problem is when I lose where I put the piece of paper! Ha Ha! I try to keep my room organized and everything in its place so, this does not happen but, a lot of the time life or, pain gets in the way. I now have a Calendar that I write all my appointments and important things I have to do on. This helps a lot.

Even with all the bad there are still some good things I have gotten from having autism. I have a heightened sense of smell that tells me when the litter box needs changed, when food is done, and when I need to bathe. I enjoy flowers and outdoors more because of my sense of smell. I also have a strong sense of textures. This can be good and bad. Especially with food, I cannot stand certain food textures. However, I love soft fur,  clothes and blankets. No wool for me or anything that is scratchy. Which also means there are no tags on any of my clothes.

Now you know you are not alone when it comes to being forgetful or needing everything to be in a certain order!

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Elizabeth Marie


Auburn hair and amber eyes…

A smile to fill you with the sun…

A warmth and brightness to her soul…

A sense of adventure and great strength…

Warm hands that create…

Such beauty, such art…

A loving heart in all things…

Elizabeth Marie…

Please bring her back to me

Safe and sound…

heart filled thoughts and hopes abound…

Spaghetti and Meatballs with a Side of Applesauce


Chef Boyardee to the Rescue!

Chef Boyardee to the Rescue! (Photo credit: Joe Plocki (turbojoe))

Spaghetti and Meatballs with a Side of Applesauce

Lately, I have not been blogging as much. This is mainly because I have been kind of down in the dumps, wanting to tear my hair out over our financial situation, and my inability to do very much! My mind is all like let’s go and my body is like let’s not! Which can be very frustrating to say the least. So I obsess about coupons. Coupon’s here coupon’s there, coupon’s everywhere! Since money is so tight I am like I must find the best coupon’s and the best sales to get what we need for the very least amount of money. Since , I have to keep the budget less than $100 a month for food, personal care products, paper products, computer ink and everything else. I must, I must strive to save, save, save so I can have money for the bills, gas and entertainment (Ha! what entertainment, this is it typing on the computer or surfing the web for coupons). Luckily I got a box of printer paper for Christmas.

Well enough of that! Time to stick my chin up (with duct tape if necessary) and get out of the muley grubs! I have loads of things to be happy for!  For instance, I just found out I got approved for food stamps and I will be getting a whopping $16 a month. So, there that’s $116 for food and all the rest! And there’s the fact I have a roof over my head, and all the utilities are on and I have a car.  I may not be able to drive it without gas but,  hey I have a good working mind maybe I can invent a new way to make gas or figure out a way to turn my little Yaris into a solar car. Hey you never know.

Then there’s the crown jewel of happiness! The one food I used to love as a kid and still do for that matter. Chef Boyardee Spaghetti and Meatball’s are only $.89 a can at Target.  That’s a  meal in a can. Plus add a vegetable or wait maybe not on the commercials lately they have been hinting that there are vegetables in every can so there you are one meal for $0.89. But wait $0.89 x 30 days = $26.70+ tax, wow that’s a big chunk out of the budget for one meal a day! Plus I usually have some applesauce for desert!  I wonder if PB & J would be cheaper?? But then  theirs the bread, jelly and peanut butter and you would have to have chips or something with it. 😦

Oh dear,  I better find some  more coupons! 😦

How are you? Has the weather got you down? Are the bill collector’s knocking on your door? What do you think?

English: crisis comes and goes, debt remains

English: crisis comes and goes, debt remains (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Mad, Mad, Monday…


I thought this piece would be just right for this fine Monday!

Mad, Mad, Monday…

Clothes hastily thrown…

Noses not blown…

Mud upon the floor…

Someone’s knocking at the door…

Screams and shouts…

Rush, rush, rush…

Dust on the mantle…

Candles burn low…

As tempers flare..

Who cares…

A full moon…

A freaking lousy tune…

Burned food…

Grumpy moods…

Sometimes life really sucks…

Thank God when Monday’s gone…

Seems everything goes wrong…

One day I will learn to plan ahead…

Think I will stay the heck in bed…

A Child of GOD


I have kind of steered clear of God, Jesus and Christianity, but since I think about GOD and Jesus all the time and they are part of my life, it is hard to edit myself to avoid making people mad. However this is my blog and since I wouldn’t be being truthful if I hid certain parts of myself and my writing  I have decided to go ahead and include post like this. Of course I am not forcing anyone to read these types of posts. I wrote this in 1992 back when I was going through a very traumatic divorce from a very abusive husband.

A Child of GOD

A child of God is born each day…

Full of promise full of love…

It is up to us to guide…

To show them the way…

The path of the lord…

Each child has a destiny…

A path they must follow…

Or woe may befall them…

We must teach them that life is precious…

That Gods miracle…

A love that must grow…

For all mankind…

Every living thing must be protected…

Each one of us must remember…

That time flows swiftly by…

Soon it’s time to die…

No time to cry…

Each one of us is a child of God whether we believe or not…

We must do our best to make a difference today…

Because tomorrow may never come…

 And  then it will be too late…

Care-A-Lot: Make some time today to care a lot about your loved ones


Care-A-Lot

Care a lot…

Sing a lot…

Say I love you at least once a day…

Take time to smile…

Make time to have fun…

Hugs and kisses aplenty…

Reassurance when times are bleak…

Time for yourself and each other…

Help one another…

Believe…

Loving pats…

Little chats…

Reality one moment at a time…

Aim to please…

Set aside some time each day…

And find away to care-a-lot…

Now a days when times are tight and divorce seems inevitable it is important to find some time to care so each relationship you have thrives.

MOTHERHOOD: Proceed With Caution


Motherhood: Proceed With Caution

Motherhood comes with no manuals, no classes to attend…

You do your best even if it’s wrong…

Learning from your mistakes…

Full of love…

Dirty hands…

Tears to wipe…

Crying yourself to sleep…

Trying your best to raise your kids right…

Motherhood is a heavy load to bear…

Children full of mischief…

Giggles abound…

Your teenagers first date, first kiss…

Worry…worry…worry…

Drugs, drive by shootings, kidnapping…

Pregnancy, disease…

Despite all the bumps, bruises, worrying and heartache…

Motherhood last forever, but with prayer and serenity…

It’s all worthwhile…