Looking Through the Window


Looking Through the Window

I look through the window and see all the dreams that have yet come to pass…

All the hopes I have…

I look around I see ambivalence…

The indifferent veneer covering people’s despair…

I look in the mirror…

I see the years that have gone by…

The innocence fading from my eyes…

The mistakes I’ve made…

I see the tears I’ve cried and those to come…

In my sleep come the nightmares…

I look at my children and I feel so much love…

I am certainly blessed from God above…

Yet, I yearn for a future where my body is not broken…

And there is no pain…

Looking through the window…

I am older…

wiser…

And perhaps happier…

but still in pain…

Published by: writeawaystacey

Introduction to Write Away Stacey Hello, my name is Stacey. I am a freelance writer/author. Though due to a lot of pain and surgeries I have just started writing again. I started writing when I was 9. Sketching since way back & painting since I was in my twenties. Since, due to my health I can no longer work as a nurse. Due to numerous injuries over the years related to car accidents & because of inadequate help and working conditions. I now live with my handicapped mom. It has been quite an adjustment being back in my childhood home with my mom; but we have made it work. We fight a lot but the closer I get to God the less I feel the need to fight with her. I used to garden and at one time I turned moms over grown outside living space into a work of art with roses, clematis and flowering trees. Unfortunately for me I can no longer work in the garden as it aggravates past injuries. Inside I have turned my living space into a creative person’s dream with a large desk and hutch, large bookcase’s filled with books, an easel/table, and a camera and tripod. I still draw and write but, as I said its been awhile. Now I have been looking through a large folder of my stories and see if I can salvage anything. Of course I have to finish this humongous task of wrting a long and detailed letter to the Social Security Judges explain why I should be approved for Social Security. I have been trying since 2012 to get it but, it just been one problem after another. However, this time I have faith that God will lead me this time. Stacey

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